I Should Have Known

Dear God,

It's me again. I should have known, Father. I really should have known. All I tried to do was create a nice, appreciative thing in honor (forget the UK spelling for now) of another friend. I used the music she loves, Glasgow theme from Love Actually. Even Dad saw before any of them did and said all the videos, not just hers, were beautiful tributes (American version) to good friends. Not all Windows Movie Maker videos take a long time to make. Hers in particular did because the player kept inserting silence for about a minute between tracks. It took 3 deletes and 3 downloads, about 2 hours worth of work to get the video running. Two hours wasted. The minute that video appears online, it's attacked and I'm attacked by two friends of hers.

The thing that is bugging me and what I don't understand is, I was talking to her whilst making the video. She was saying "awesome" and "thanks." Etc., Just don't act for me. If you don't want it, then just say so. I'm ruthlessly attacked by her friends for making this video..my God people, it's a way to show appreciation. I don't have the money to buy her a drink and she is a long way from here. And the catch is, she doesn't defend the video. She doesn't defend me even by saying "thanks" or even "cool" would do it. Now mind you, I did not know that in UK casual terms, tributes are for dead people, but still I did make it clear what the American term stood for. I don't make videos for just anybody. I make them for people who are/and were special to me.

I've since deleted the video. If it's going to be attacked that much and this friend finds it funny, then why should I care??? Delete it and for that matter, delete the Glasgow love theme as well. I want no reminders. If I ever want to hear it again, there's always YouTube. A good friend of mine keeps saying to concentrate on those that support me, which is what I'm trying to do, but also I'm trying to keep an unstable relationship as stable as possible. Looks like something nice I tried to do just knocked the boat.

Not everybody will pay tribute to you, ya know. I'm not going to say this is once in a lifetime, but from where I am from, good treatment of friends is very rare.

Funny thing is, that is the second time I made the video. First time it went online, it got the same response. GET OVER YOURSELVES PEOPLE AND JUST DROP IT AND MOVE FORWARD.

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