The Lark Ascending

The last three months was a learning experience. Firstly, it was very stupid and selfish of me to even think of doing such a thing to myself. Secondly, acting on emotion causes pain, not only to oneself, but to others. This type of pain makes the blood run cold, like the life candle has been snuffed. Thirdly, much anger built up. Finally, I just said, “I’m sick of dancing around the drama triangle with the rest of them. Jesus, take it from me.” He did. And I flew. I only bring this up (whilst eating pizza at half 2am) because everybody has burdens in some form and there is no need to carry those burdens alone, though this is often the way we prefer it. There is one willing to take them from you. The only thing required of you is the willingness to release it, and just let it go. Grandaddy’s motto in life was “Just let it go.” This is somewhat similar to Bobby McFerrin’s “Don’t worry. Be Happy!’ Overall, it’s the same message. Be like the lark, twitter happily, spread your wings, and fly. This is for you Southern fans: Don’t forget to shake your tail feathers!
I have a new man-friend in my life. He is not a boy, nor is he a boyfriend. Mr. Scorpio is my age, a musician, and as a masters student, has around the same amount of work to complete in 3 weeks as I do. He’s fun to talk to and we share many similar interests. Tis kind of scary, but awesome at the same time! Yes, I do have a crush on this man-friend and he knows it. I think this is the first time I’ve ever felt shy, or “giddy” about a fellow. Ah, well, first time for everything right?

I just keep thinking about that song from The Sound of Music.
Climb every mountain
Search high and low.
Follow every byway,
Every path you know.
Climb every mountain.
Ford every stream.
Follow every rainbow
Til you find your dream,
A dream that will need
All the love you can give
Everyday of your life
For as long as you live.

Moment of Gratitude
1. When I was so close to giving up my dreams those months ago, for the friends who snapped me back to reality, forcing me to realise what I mean to them and to others. Life is a jungle, but it can be a paradise when your buddies provide the bug spray. J
2. The wonderful weather in Bangor.
3. For Adam, Gabby, and Charli (Wimmy!!!), today was a bit rough, but I now feel better after talking with them
4. Scalding hot Jacuzzis at JJB…relieve pressures of work
5. For those certain pieces that remind me why I chose this profession.
6. Betty Crocker icing on a spoon. Guaranteed happiness with every mouthful!
7. For people that don’t give up on you, when you’ve long given up on yourself.